Last night I woke up to a voicemail from Chris. He was back in Cali like I feared. I guess he contacted MJ’s friend and the guy drove him back there. I called him back and pretty much flipped out yelling and crying. I told him he and her are no longer welcome to be in any part of Ryan’s life.

As Angela and Daniel pointed out that probably isn’t the best choice. Ryan will only hate and resent me if I don’t allow him to talk to his Dad. I just don’t know how to protect him from this. The other night he said his dream was coming true because his Dad was moving back here. Now he isn’t and Ryan’s let down once again. This morning he asked me if I found Chris yet and when I told him he stuck his head in the pillow and cried. I cheered him up by telling him I was giving him all of the WOW gold Chris had sent me to hold for him until he got back. I told Ryan I’m giving it to him instead to spend on anything he wants.

Chris really let Ryan down. I’m so angry at him. He also let everyone else down as well. All the people who tried to make him coming back as easy as possible for him. His friends and family he offered jobs in the company he was starting, his brother even moved into the smaller room so Chris could have the bigger one. His aunt sent him a phone for his bus ride, Kevin was going to pick him up. Logan was going to help him start the company. I was hoping that since I’d have help with Ryan I could finally finish school. Once again that was derailed by Chris.

Chris was my best friend for a long time. I too was really happy about him coming back. That’s going to change though. I can’t do this anymore. Maybe I can’t tell Ryan he can’t talk to his Dad but I don’t have to talk to him. And I don’t have to hang out with him and MJ when they visit or allow them in my home. I already deleted his number from my phone and removed them both on myspace. :(